Speaker: ‘It has been told to us that there exist two centers. How do I know that I am living out of the right center?’ I suppose this has been told to you very recently. Right? He says, ‘How does a young man know whether he is being made a fool of? That the ego is not taking him for a ride. How does a young man know that?’
You cannot know the truth, the reality what you call as ‘right’ unless you first know what is called as ‘false’. And that must be the first step. You cannot directly jump onto the truth. The reason is simple, our life, our minds are full of the false. You say, ‘Ego-the false center’. Do you know what ego is all about? Ego is about acquiring an identity given by the external. Someone comes and tells you that you are brilliant. This is a statement made by an external agency. You are brilliant. And what do you do? You say, ‘I am brilliant.’ This is what ego is, internalizing an external influence. Do you see that? Yes.
So, something external has been taken by me and I have started believing that is ‘me’. This is what that false center is and that is what our minds are. And unfortunately, our minds are full of these imported beliefs. To be more accurate, all beliefs are imported beliefs, taken from outside. Someone comes and tells you something and you take it in. Our minds are full of that only.
Our religion has been given to us by somebody else. Our name, way of life, definitions of what life is, success is, livelihood is, work is, career is, freedom is, all these have come from the outside. We have not understood them on our own. The entire script is coming from outside and we are just living that script. That’s what our life is.When life is like this, then why should we ask for what is real? The first step is to look at ‘this life’ that we are leading. Why ask for real which would be nothing for you but just an imagination? Understand this. Considering the kind of false lives that we are leading currently, even if the real is brought to you, it will not mean anything to you. The first step hence is to look sharply at this life and look at what is unreal.
Do not ask for the real center. Look clearly at the false center, as the very first thing. Do not ask for the truth, but look clearly at the false, because your lives are full of false only. And that’s easier to look at, that is much more available. Morning to evening, we are living with imported ideas, beliefs, borrowed ways of living, habits. That is the way we are living day-in and day-out. It is easier to look at that. That must be the first step. In fact, you can look only at that right now. Look at that. Find out that falseness. Point it out wherever you see it. See how your thoughts are influenced by others. See how your very concept of life is a borrowed one.
See what do you mean by good life, and what constitutes your good life. See how you have been duped into believing that reputation, power and money is what makes a good life. Don’t you see that this is a borrowed belief? You don’t investigate it. You do not find it out on your own. You have been told that such and such are the ways of living, and you run after this. ‘If you get all this, then you have successful life. A good fellow is one who does this, that and that.’ You have accepted that, you have believed that. Inquire all this, this is what the false center is.
Once this false center is relieved, once you look into this falseness of this, in that looking, in that knowing, is reality, the truth. So at every moment do not be bothered with what is the right, what is the right. Just catch yourself whether you are acting out of intelligence, or acting out of conditioning. Don’t just react in situations. Catch yourself, catch the falseness, that is sufficient. You need not do more. The truth is not an object to be obtained from somewhere. You cannot go and fetch truth from that room. The truth does not lie there and there, that I am acting from there, from the right center, from there and there. The true center cannot be obtained, it is there within you. It is just covered layer upon layer by falseness.
The moment you are able to look at those layers, the truth will reveal itself for you. Truth is nothing to be obtained. Truth is nothing to be sought. Falseness goes, truth is there. You are acting out of the right thing. So, what does that mean? That means, from the morning till the evening, find out the reality of what you are doing. Look sharply how you attend sessions, how you attend lectures in your college everyday, with what kind of thoughts is your mind filled always, your insecurities. Look at the reality of your relationships. Look at the truth. See, what you spend your time doing. And that is what will reveal the falseness to you. See how afraid you are. See how insecure you often are about the future. And look into the falseness of all that, and that is sufficient. That is what ego is.
None of the fears are real. Somebody has surely planted the fear in you. And that is the false center. That fear is the false center. That belief is the false center. Anything coming from the outside and striking roots within your mind, is the false center. When you identify it as false, when you catch it as being false, you are free from it. You need not do anything extra. Are you getting it? Just watch out what is happening.
See why you are studying. See who gave you the concept of career, and from where did that come. See how you are influenced with the crowd. See how difficult you find to remain alone. Go into these things. See how ambition and desire take control of you. Go into these things. These things happen with you everyday. Catch them like an intelligent person. When you look into them, when you investigate like a student of science in an unbiased way, just as one conducts an experiment, without imposing his beliefs upon the equipment, without imposing his prejudices to what is happening, then you see the falseness of it. Do you impose your desires on the equipment while conducting an experiment? No. You only observe what is happening.
When you observe all this happening, then the falseness is completely revealed. And that is the truth. The revelation of the falseness itself is truth, and then you are free, then you are really young. Then you will find a lot of energy. Energy will flow spontaneously. It will not require the momentum of habit.
-Excerpts from a Samvaad session. Edited for clarity.
Watch the session at: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xvgOlcE_H-Q